TOO...

2:23am

Too young to look old

But too old to care

About that drunk girl who just passed me on the street

Blouse strap dangling mid-arm

Too weak to pull it up

Too disoriented to care about being a target

Smart enough to notice

But too ambivalent to care

About that asshole that just called me an asshole

If only he knew anything about me

Or where I'm from

Or about how rude he just was

"Such a nice person"

But yet so insensitive and selfish

To realize that I just hurt the feelings

Of someone who cares about me 

More than I could ever imagine

Still present

But yet so distant

That I don't even care about

Where I am, who I'm with, 

Or how I'm going to get to where I'm going next

To be detached sometimes can feel so sweet

But so lonely

It's only cool to be alone when you've forgotten what it is like

Then you yearn for companionship once you're lonely again

Too distracted right now to shout

At that loud girl in the alley

If only she realized it was almost 3am

But maybe her blouse strap is mid-arm

And maybe she is too selfish to realize she's hurting my feelings

Too artistic to alter this expression

To fit the needs of others

Too young to look old

But too old to care  about what people think

About me or my behaviour

Always aware of great friends

And great things when they come by

And family, the rock of support

Well in my life

Love, laughter, life, defeat, rejection

Always a Jamaican

Black, Green and Gold

To di werl we go

Without boundaries

But with an appreciation of life

Tarnished with hardships

Tailored made for each and every one of us

Too hungry to care about my diet

Too happy to have a bed to sleep on 

And food to eat

And so happy I got to write this

Now i'm too young to look old

But too old to care about NOT being out on a Saturday night

Now it's time for bed

After running that crazy maze through my head