What I've been waiting to say

Hey bloggers, i figured that this blog would come some time or another. It had been riding on my mind when exactly to write this blog, but i knew it would definitely have to be written. Where to start, where to start...

This blog is basically an expression of my experiences within this past year as it relates to me making some changes in my life. I had never ever known if i was the type with the balls to make a big move or radical decision, but i did know i was the type that would always seek happiness and honesty. And these qualities have created my journey. A journey of passion, maybe fate and hopefully destiny. This chain of events has again proven to me that many things in life work on a higher level than we can even appreciate.

Experience 1: My bredrin Rocky tells me about this band he's formed and i tell him i sing, and he says he'll link me about dat. Dec 2005 - Rocky links me to sing backup. I have now become a member of Rocky 5.
I tell Rocky that there is an audition to perform on the Ocean Spray stage at Air Jamaica Jazz & Blues Festival. Deadline is in 2 days. Rocky gets everything together and we audition.
Rocky 5 is selected to perform! We perform on the Saturday show in a prime slot, just after Kem rocks the place. We get extra time as the next main stage act is not ready. We can't believe we've just did this.

Experience 2: I decide to stop working at the end of Dec 2005 to take a break, study for some exams and figure out what i want out of life. I decide to take 3 months and start working again in April, but this time wid kids...gotta love em'. I apply for my new job starting at the beginning of April...who knows if i'll get work.

Experience 3: I decide i want to pursue music on a higher level and do some voice lessions locally. I'm inspired to take this to a higher height. This has always been something i've dreamed of, being an entertainer...making people happy through performance. I apply for Ithaca College to do theatre arts. My vocal coach suggests Berklee College of Music. I apply to both. Ithaca rejects me....Berklee offers me an audition in Boston.

Experience 4: I travel to Boston alone and audition. I think they like me. Mar 30 - I get accepted to Berklee College of Music. Oh i also got the job, i start working in a few days. I continue to sing backup. I'm happy that my plan is working...i'm confused, i'm not sure if i'm doing the right thing.

Experience 5: I follow my friend to a rehearsal wid Benjy Myaz. He needs another backup singer, and i jus happen to be sitting in the room, greasy and sweaty jus there to observe. A guy comes dressed up to audition. He doesn't get the material quick enough. I start to sing. I get the gig. Have Smile Ja at 6am. He wants to know if i can do it. I say yes. We learn the material in a few hours. We perform in a few hours. I now sing backup for Benjy. He like Nats and I as a combo. He wants to do more work wid us.

Experience 6: Alaine need s backup singer. Her mom says ask Mario, he can sing. She asks. I accept. I now sing backup for Alaine. Only did 2 gigs, but it was great while it lasted. Alaine is a great person and performer...wish her all of what she deserves...MAD SUCCESS!

Experience 7: Camar pka Flava Unit proposes that i sing backup for him as well. I accept. I now sing backup for Camar, along with 2 of Jamaica's most talented male singers, Steven and Danhue. Keep in mind, Camar met me seeing me singing backup. He's another good and blessed soul, and it had been a great pleasure singing wid him and the other guys. Apart from my Choir Boyz i've never sang wid a group a guys dat can sing so damn good! Is this fate or is it just being at the right place at the right time...fate vs the performance dominoe effect. Whatever it is i'm liking it. And Camar, yu ago buss big big BIG...memba mi tole yu so! (And heah, keep me as backup lol...dat is if i don't buss too :)

Experience 8: I decide to put on a fundraising concert...my own production - This has always been a dream. I think of putting live music on the theatre stage...something i saw done before and i quite enjoyed it, plus quite different...I call it "Live on Stage". Damn, the theatre needs to be booked about 1 year in advance. Heah lemme ask anyway. There is an opening for the weekend of Nov 25/26. But i have no sponsors, how will i pull it off...i can always cancel..."Book it, i want that weekend!" I have under 2 months to plan a production with live music. It's now November, i know who i want to perform. Got no sponsors. Show is next week, we've only had 1 rehearsal. Show is tomorrow, our tech rehearsal starts 2 hrs late. This is our 3rd rehearsal. The band is not as tight as it could be. Not sure who my guest artistes will be for each night. Haven't gotten enough tickets out. What was i thinking. I've done everything almost on my own. It's showtime...the show is good, but it rained and there are a gazillion and 1 events this weekend...the Saturdayturnout is poor. It's showtime again...yesterday's show was superb, but long. Today the house is >half capacity. The show is a hit. Bertie donates a set. The tickets are printed by a printer on cardstock paper. The artiste and MC help for free. Profits measly but at least not in the red.

The audience is now aware i am going to pursue music in the USA. Yeah, is he a doctor? Why would he go an do music now? His parents must be disappointed. What's gonna happen to the medicine? But he's just an OK singer, will he make it anywhere? Why go to music school anyway? Wonder who's going to pay for it?

All these questions i need not answer for you, but now you see my events of passion and fate. This is what i want for myself. This is what i think God wants for me. I have plans to do som much with all i've learned and will learn. This story has many more acts of God that i cannot go into, but this is the general gist. At the end of the day i am so grateful and feel so blessed.

I wish for you all to follow your dreams and passions and don't be limited by age, or discouragement. You will only answer to one at the end of this life, and while you're here might as well you give back happily.

Thanks to everyone who has always supported me and made me feel like my desire to follow my dreams is well worth it. And thanks to all the haters who fueled my passion and still continue to fuel my passion even more.

Thanks for your time. Bless!

LIVE ON STAGE

Hey all, jus wanted you all to know about "LIVE ON STAGE", a WAYMAR production.

“Live on Stage” is born out of our passion for music and an intense desire to promote new as well as upcoming local artistes, in an intimate theatre environment.

The production will be held on Saturday, November 25, 2006 at 8pm and Sunday, November 26, 2006 at 6pm, at the Philip Sherlock Centre for the Creative Arts.

Artistes slated to perform include myself (MG) (www.myspace.com/mariog1) , Natalie Spence (www.myspace.com/nls83 ) , Ellan Edwards (Rising Stars 2006 Contestant), Allicia Gaynor, the Choir Boyz, Rocky 5 Band, Camar (a.k.a. Flava Unit) www.myspace.com/camar, and tentatively Alaine (www.myspace.com/alainemusic), Airplai (www.myspace.com/airplai) and Benjy Myaz (www.myspace.com/benjymyaz ). These artistes, some of which you may be familiar with are all talented musicians, with a lot to offer.

This is a cyaan miss. Call (876) 331-9237 to reserve tickets or email liveonstage@cwjamaica.com . Also look out for the "Live on Stage" website!

MG

Heah I'm Doctor!

It's real funny how sometimes u spend so much of your life training to do something, then you achieve it, then you have to pinch yourself and remind yourself that you actually did.

Occasionally i have these moments where i have to say "Heah you're really a Doctor". You know those times when people actually call you first when they have a problem, because they either one just need a doctor, or two genuinely feel you can make a valid contribution. And i appreciate that persons respect what i do, and that they think i am of sound mind to give them good advice...thanks.

The sad irony about being a doctor is that there are times when you hear comical things, times when things concern the hell out of you, and since we really are human...times when you wish you weren't being bothered. The 3 experiences do come with the territory though, so at the end of the day you must be professional so that no one really can decern which place you're at.

Again i leave this aspect of wow i'm a doctor for sake i become unethical and say things i regret. Medicine is a noble and humbling profession. I have no regrets that i did it, though there are other passions in life i wish to pursue. Dats for another blog tho, which will be coming to you before the end of the year (All who know anyting keep yu mouth shut). But i'm really a doctor and i'm grateful i can contribute to persons lives on a day to day, especially with the amount of respect i'm given i think i owe it to them. It's God's work through out hands.

Whatever you do in life, do it to the best of your ability, whether you like it or not. All your actions ultimately affect someone else, so execute them with alacrity and conscience. Think of what you would want if you were in their shoes and do all that you can do in your capacity to help them. God Bless.

BEEN AGES

I haven't blogged in ages. Makes me feel like i've been neglecting my viewing public. Normal Mario would have said..."If any one is viewing", but heah there are webcounters, so i know some other sick people out there are reading the crap i write.

I have a lot to tell, but i like to write my blogs when i'm in the frame of mind to write, not when i tired and pop dung from work.

All i want you guys to know is dat if any year was the year my life made some serious changes it was this one. Or at least changes that i had the most to do with, and the most drastic changes ever. 2006 you definitely are a big one. The biggest one so far. I'd love to tell you all of 'em now but dat not goin happen. Let's sum it up into music, relationships, passion, work, aggression, my license expired (LOL), age, maturity, professionalism, honesty. Too many areas to list. But God has a plan for me and i also have a plan for myself, and i definiitely feel like we working together. So as we sort out mi ting, big up to you all and i hope you all sort out unu tings. Dr SS...nuff props to you. I definitely feel parallel wid you and what you're doing. And every day i realise passion is the drving force to success and it makes work pleasure. I don't want to think i am working when i'm working. I want to be paid to do something that makes me happier than i've ever know. Music does dat for me, so daz where it's at. Peace. Find your passion, and chase it like never before.

MG

FRUSTRATED

Here studying for this USMLE exam and wondering, why am i doing it again? Giving Uncle Sam some more money so that he can tell me i'm qualified enough to apply basic medical principles to save a life, after studying numerous irrelevant facts. I think i'm just frustrated cuz i haven't had to study like this in a while and it's driving me crazy. The perfectionist in me can't accept getting answers wrong, but i just can't hold on to some of these things that i think i used to know many years ago.

Well right ya now is jus push thru mi ago push thru cah exam haffi do next friday, pass or fail. Might be better to fail cuz then i can do it over and get a better grade. Low pass nuh mek it. Once you pass it can't be repeated, and daz your grade for life. As u can see i am venting. Allow me to. What ya'll can do is say a lil prayer for me...cuz i for sure have been saying mine, as i am going insane.

You jus have to be the bigger person and prepare yourself for anything. Dreams of being a successful musician can fail in which case me an Uncle Sam might have to get close, and on his terms too...which means passing his 3 exams. So let's get at them one at a time. Maybe we can be friends, if i don't enter an asylum in the process.

Thanks for reading. Peace!

CHOLESTEROL

Heah bloggers, you can usually depend on me to write blogs kinda like a journalist, really about social commentary, or my random thoughts on some random thing. Most times we don't reveal anything personal about ourselves, and that i don't mind. But today i speak out of guilt about something important to all of you.

To just cut to the chase, I HAVE HIGH CHOLESTEROL (Clearly volunteering to be the poster boy huh...nah not really). Apparently familial, so there isn't much i can do about it. I was initially on diet and exercise, then placed on medication, which i've been on for years now. I have a family history of heart disease amongst some other fun stuff.

But I had KFC twice yesterday and a slice of pizza, and i figured i must confess to the world that if i had a heart attack yesterday it woulda been my fault. Haven't been exercising much lately. But heah i usually get it together.

Just thought you all should go get your cholesterol checked, cause you never know. And if you choose to not care to know, then cut back on oily foods and do some exercise. Live healthy, live right. Something will kill you one day i guess, and we all have a medical issue. The best we can do is try our best to keep it under control.

Nothing much else to say really. I'm doing this blog as punishment to myself. So back to the books. Peace.

The Hi5 Phenomenon

This blog has been long overdue, but i'm sure more now than ever you all can relate to some of these things, as it relates to Hi5.

When i had joined Hi5 it was just another one a dem forwards you get from your friend who wants you to try out this new website where u can link wid their friends. I had previously been on Friendster, which is actually quite similar...but Hi5 took the baton and ran wid it. When i joined Hi5, few person were on it at that time. Looking back i wonder why i joined a site that has the pet name for HIV (Hi5...see the similarity). May have been intentional...kinda like how HIV spreads rapidly, that's how contagious Hi5 will be. Back then i would have actually added like 1 or so persons that i didn't know. Can't say i do the same now...and we all know why we can't. I'll share with you some of my experiences and some that my friends have had.

1. Hi5 is great for seeing those friends you haven't seen in like forever, then all of a sudden you buck up on their picture and they're like married, or looking hot, or fat and pop-down. It all sounds wicked, but ya'll know these are some of the things dat go through your mind when you open these profiles...So Hi5, GOOD FOR REKINDLING OLD FRIENDSHIPS.

2. Hi5, for some a PLACE TO MEET NEW PEOPLE, and i mean really meet them. Like exchange numbers and go on dates and link up and whatever else people on Hi5 do. I've had my personally experiences in that department. I would say most have been good experiences. Some a little weird, but lets leave dat right there.

3. Hi5, a place to be STALKED. Can we say FREAKS! I've got so many request recently from persons i don't know, persons of the same and opposite sex, persons who I'd go to prison for if i even thought of adding them. This is where it's getting a little out of hand. It is called a friend request for a reason...the person should be your friend or at least an acquaintance. Please Hi5ers, i guess it doesn't hurt to try, but if you see dat 2 months have passed and you're not added, jus give up. Most people check their mail more than once in 2 months. Underage females, please be careful of what you're looking for....you might just get more than you bargained for. And young and old men exploring your sexuality...ahhm, stop taking shirtless pics, and stop trying to add me, and clearly if all your friends are male and have no shirts on as well...the rest can be left unsaid.

4. Hi5 a place to FAAAS! Faaas people neva coulda more happy, cah now dem can look pon dem fren and dem enemy page, and see which state dem in, and who dem friends is. If dem married or single, or if their friends are all shirtless, ugly or pretty. Den Hi5 go mek it so dat u can see who look pon your page. Well mi glad dem did do it, cah now mi know who faaasin inna mi business. All some people do a daytime is learn bout people pon hi5. Bad ting is dat you can disable dat feature, so now the faas people can still see your page an nobody don't know. Faas people, mind yu own. Well I really jus kiddin tho to some extent, as we all honestly use Hi5 to faas a lil. Dats the whole point of it, to see what other people are about. It does get pathological when you either spend the whole day doing it, or you keep checking the relationship status of persons to see when they become single (Like capital "L" on the forehead can i tell ya!)

I'm tired of typing now, but i could go on and on about this. Hi5 is not jus a place to meet people anymore. It's a science! I have learnt a lot. You can now play it like a game, and manipulate things to your advantage or disadvantage. Kinda scary if you tell me. But all in all i think the good from Hi5 has outweighed the bad for me. So at the end of the say and after all the freak messages and requests, BIG UP Hi5...you a di boss. LOL!

Here is where i should put my Hi5 link. LOL...if i were a freak, plus ya'll who readin this know it already. Peace.

The Beauty of a Child

It bothers me that there are persons who don't like children, who mistreat and abuse them, who have no interest in educating and bettering them.

I work wid children daily, and have never been happier to do so. They inspire me more than they would ever know...and they make me sick at least once a month. They lack wisdom and maturity, but possess traits that many of us as adults yourn to regain or even gain, so as brutal honesty, appreciation of life and beauty in it's most simple form - an inanimate object can become alive in the imagination of a child. Illness is black or white, sick or well, for them. Very little grey or all that strange adult stuff like depression to cloud things up. And even when at their worst, there is often still a jolt of joy in them, as if oblivious to their poorly state.

Today again a kid made my day, as they often do. I visited the ward to check up on the progress of some kids I had admitted. I stood by the bed of a child whom I hadn't even looked on closely or ever met before. He played with my hand and said "Pencil", and I responded..."finger". I then noticed a large surgical scar over his head, an absent right eye and a clearly non-functional left eye. This kid that didn't know me continued to explore me the curious bedstander. He then said "Want to go drive", which he repeated about 30 secs after. He seemed to like the concept of driving. I figured this was something pleasurable for him when he could see. The child had a tumour called a retinoblastoma, a cancer of the eye, which is seen more often in children. He then rested his head on my shoulder and basically hugged me. I felt like someone's dad for jus a fraction of a minute. In that fraction i experienced many emotions of my own, as well as some that i imagined he might have been having. For instance his..."I want to be driving". And i was thinking..."This is what it feels like to be wanted and depended on". For him..."Can we go drive?". For me..."This kid has advanced cancer. Will he live for long? Why does this stuff happen to kids?", and for him..."Someone came by today and visited me"

The moral of this blog is that there are so many dimensions to this life and so much to be grateful for. So when next sweatin' the small stuff, remember that there is a small kid dats blind, but still happy, or there's a kid being abused and is afraid to tell. So thank you Lord for my eyes and all that you have given me and allowed me to see and learn.

This is a little insight on how I think, and how a fraction of a minute worth of interation can have a lifetime worth of effect. I'll never forget this kid. Matter a fact i think i'm gonna go visit him again soon. I'll give you an update. Peace. Walk good.

TUESDAY NITE LIVE!!! Camar (www.myspace.com/camar) and Cezar (www.myspace.com/cezarmusicpage) ! 15.08.06

I just have to start by saying that I'm so happy there is a TNL, because it excites me to see local talent showcase their material in a intimate environment. It's good exposure and definitely something to do on a Tuesday nite, where you'll feel tired the following day, but not like you did after retroactive Wednesdays at the QUAD.

So Tuesday past highlighted Camar, with Cezar as the main act. Apologetically i was late so if anyone in the previous acts reads this is not a disrespec ting. I caught Camar's first song while parking...think it's titles "It's you". This blog is only gonna focus on positives cuz i'm not here to tear down my fellow entertainers, who are all doing things i hope to do soon. Flava is definitely a unique local R&B talent. Few voices sound like him, and actually have an international appeal. Love his music. He did a great job and i jus wish i'd see more of him...like on live shows and elsewhere. Flava where are you? Let's jus hope it's cuz there's something real big coming our way.

Cezar gave a solid performance, which i enjoyed. I'm proud to see him develop such a growing catalogue of songs. He apologized for being hoarse but he didn't crack as far as i remember. Props to you Cezar, and i hope big tings happen for you as well. But yu dun know mi haffi big up mi big fren Natalie who sings backup for Cez. Nats not only sang solid note for note pitch perfect, well blended backup, but Cez also gave her a buss on the Serenity riddim. Nats did "You got me" for the first time live, and get a big forward. Nats and i sing backup all the time, so mi jus haffi let the world know seh she a come haaard. Big up mi fren...I know you surprised many! And it was great seeing the shock on their faces.

To all the Jamaican musicians, big up unnu self. Hope to be on TNL one day before the end of the year if i can get my act together. We'll see how dat goes. Peace out till the next time.

MG

Wha Gwaan CONT'D

I coulda jus extended yesterdays delayed blog, but last night was even funnier. When you think it's over. These things are all jus so chance tho. I end up at some Sunsplash promotion and of course there are free giveaways. I text the answer in to "Which venue is Reggae Sunsplash gonna be held at?"...Like duh Richmond Estate. We all had flyers anyways. The joke is that i end up winning a free Motorolla phone and a case of Sprite, which i had to go on stage and collect and i also got a mini interview from Ms. Kitty from FAME FM (dat was exciting)...did i ever tell you i kinda like fat women...anyways daz for another blog. So the cameras pop out and picture a tek, and i'm thinkin to myself, here i am on some stage again by chance. Maybe this really is destiny or am i jus NUFF (At least i'm not singin this time). LOL. You know i'm not nuff so don't even go there. Den yu shoulda see mi a cut thru di crowd wid mi case a Sprite...proud like! (Sarry, sarry!!...a cut an go thru). And one sketel gal she waan dip har han' inna mi crate. Mi tell her seh mi soon gi ar one, an she still a gwaan like she want it. And could you believe mi pap di case fi give her one. And she gwaan like she no want it. As if hot gal no drink hat Sprite. Lickle most mi tek it back. But she give her fren...who neva even seh tanks. Den widin 8 mins after dat, some hurry come up gal to the left of mi come over and seh "Can i get one of your Sprite?". Nuttin nuh betta dan Jamdown. The Sketel seh no to the Sprite. The more uptown girl run come fi it. What if i had said NO! That woulda been even funnier. Then my fren from Trinidad leans over to me and says..."That's why you must be wid a Trini woman, cah hot girl don't beg hot Sprite". Or maybe i shoulda been wid the skets. LOL. She clearly neva want it either. And if you saw what she was wearing...had no where to put it anyway. There is the end to another exciting nite in the life of MG.

POST BLOG DISCLAIMER: The use of the terms Sketel and the patois you usually do not associate with me, was not intended to offend any of our blog-readers but just for dramatic effect. You know in my world people are people. No skets or buttus, only unless you truly prove yourself to be one...and this is not class-specific, but behaviour specific. Peace :)

Whaaa Gwaan!

Heah bloggers and blog-readers, just had to let you know about how weird these past 2 weeks have been in terms of musical exposure and jus general exposure. Makes you wonder if things really do happen for a reason. The first incident was me being in the studio audience for Rising Stars, to support my friend Ellan. Didn't seem like a big deal to me really. I had been there 2 years ago and no one cared, but this time around it seems like i was almost a contestant with the attention it brought from my co-workers. Kinda funny. I still have people telling me about it.

This would be followed by Tuesday Nite Live at the Village Cafe where i sang backup for a band i'm in called ROCKY V. Though terribly disappointed with the sound balance, it was a good experience and a nice performance. A lot of my close friends came to support me, and i really appreciated it. Made me feel like i was one of the lead singers the way they made it look. And that's real cool. Thanks friends.

So the week continues and i go to Sumfest on Saturday, which i thoroughly enjoyed. On returning on Sunday, by buck-ups I drop a friend of mine to a band rehearsal on Sunday and again by buck-ups end up singin backup for this great band. Lickle more mi deh pon TVJ Smile Jamaica a sing backup Monday morning. Again the coworkers are in shock and surprised at the same time. "It's him on TV Singing"...."Boooombaaat, a so yu a gwaaaaan!".

When i thought it ended, last nite I supported my friend Ellan at a work talent show and heah, she needed backup, so myself and some other singing friends who jus happened to be in the audience, ended up being backup. The audience could hardly hear us, but it was cool!

This blog really goes no where, but jus goes to show that ONE TING REALLY LEADS TO ANADDA, and as my friend would say...success is when preparation and opportunity meet. So always be prepared for anything. I could have said no to my Rising Star Studio audience ticket, and definitely no to singin on Smile JA after a long drive in from the country and no to singing backup impromtu at a staff function. When opportunity knocks, sometimes you jus have to open the door. Then more and more doors start to open. Blessed love!

Guinep Seeds

This blog was really supposed to be talking about some of my recent musical expeditions, but i work wid kids and strangely enough guineo seeds seemed to have a heavier weighting right now. Just this week i saw 2 kids wid guinep seed emergencies. And since i've been working wid kids, i've seen at least one other...so daz 3 in a real short period of time.

As a Jamaican i always heard not to give kids guinep seeds, and now i finally can apprecite why. PARENTS DON'T LET YOUR KIDS EAT GUINEPS. Just this week i saw a kid wid one stuck just above the voice box. No heimlich was gettin dat one out. Luckily there were some skilled specialists in the vicinity who saved his life. I'm sure when he was sucking the sweet soft outside, he never imagined that the hard seed inside would have almost taken his life.

Just today i saw a kid who swallowed one yesterday, and he was cool all day, until this morning he started vomiting his life away. At first i was only thinking of it gettin stuck in the throat but not in the intestines. Well seems like this dudes guinep wanted to block him off. These kids were both big kids and also of different ages. Just goes to show what an 'innocent' guinep can do.

So lesson for today for the parents and for the non-parents...Don't SCREW wid Guineps. They could really mess up your kids. Peace out. Have to provide a little education for the masses!

In the dead of night!

You know it's really amazing that in this little country of violence, where people shudder and drive painfully slow when it rains, that they would come out of their house in the dead of night! Well yesterday when Jamaica experienced its all island powercut (God knows why), the plans of many a night owl Jamaican were changed...well maybe not so many from what i saw. There was Special Delivery out at Caymanas for $3500 preseold and $4500 at the gate (conveniently for the promoters all the persold tickets were sold out; well it was convenient before the powercut), and there was Arabian Nights featuring the amazing Tessane Chin and Rootz Underground.
I was so uncertain if anyone would even consider having a function in pitch blackness that my brother went out first to see if it was really going on, then he called me. Well to our surprise, Norbrook had light (where the concert was). They also had Police and security and tonnes of cars on the sidewalk. I guess u can't cancel or postpone a Tesanne Chin concert can you...or Special Delivery for that matter. And i guess certain areas will get back light first (bitter huh).
But i was happy nonetheless cuz i was gonna see Tessane perform and that's always a treat. An you know any all- inclusive function put on by these people is gonna be legit! Island Grill, Curry goat, Chocolate fountains with dipable fruit (yummy), and a nice audience and Copppershot on the 1s and 2s.
But now that i'm telling you about what i didn't intend to, the focus of this blog is dat people in Jamaica will do almost anything for their entertainment. This country nuh boring at all. An for all those who tink it is, is you mek it boring for yuself. Nuff tings here fi do, and nuff nice peole to do it wid. Da country ya full a vibez and mad peole weh love lef dem yaad in all islan' powercut. But God bless Jamaica...wi vibes lan' out a many one people!

I'm here gettin stuffy and feelin to be so expressive but can't seem to put my thoughts together. I hope i'm not gettin sick again. I was jus sick week before...an real sick. But i'm hungry, daz y i can't think. I'm also many other things...a lil disappointed, a lil angry, a lil pensive and a lil anxious...about what. I don't know really. This blog is jus gonna make me look a lil MAD! But at least i get to type and feel like i'm conveying how i feel right now. My colution to this is GO AN EAT. Dat usually works for me. Food can solve many problems. So i'll go do that. Maybe after that i can tell you something interesting.MG

THIS blog was written like a week before the publish date...Guess what i'm still stuffy but finally clearing up! There is a GOD!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhh is the noise you make in your mind or literally make when you're frustrated. Today was an arrrrrrggggh day. The funny things about arrrrrrrrgggggh days is dat nobody may even know you're having one. Today as i thought the stress would never end, it jus kept acruing...kinda like credit card interest that's notpaid on time. But God as usual goves you the strength to pull through.

And the worse is the pain of learning. I did things today that i was proud of cus i had never done them before but at the same time made mistakes that i would have to feel embarrassed about. Really there was nothing to be embarrased about because mistakes are a part of life and actually how we learn not to make em again. But u can't help but feelin a lil' embarrased...it's jus that part of us that wants to be perfect and never screw up.

So to all a you blog readers. Arrrrrrrrggggh...i'm tired, i'm human, i make mistakes and sometimes i'm not pleasant, not kind and don't want to be around anyone. Big ups to anyone else who had an arrrrrrgggggggghhh day, and i hope tomorrow is not a repeat of today's arrrrrrrrrggggghhhhhh!!